Declaration of Independence from Insecurity

(An exercise from Keeping a Journal You Love by Sheila Bender)

You have prevented me from being myself.

You have prevented me from having fun.

You have made me anxious.

You have made me bland.

You have made me silent.

You have restrained my sense of humor.

You have restrained my sense of dignity.

You have caused me to pretend.

You have caused me to hide.

You have caused me pain.

You have hindered my ability to laugh.

You have hindered my ability to cry.

You have held me in the dark.

You have held me under water.

You have held me back.

I will not allow this anymore.

I will be me.

I will live truth.

I will refute anger.

I will bask in solitude.

I will embrace uncertainty.

I will hold onto my principles.

I will prize my "guilty" pleasures.

I will grow to be a person I admire.

I will show the world who I am.

I will agitate my comfort zone.

I will admit my weaknesses.

I will honor my intuition.

I will fly my freak flag.

I will trust my Self.

I will forgive.

Fresh start

It's definitely been a while since I've written on here. Partly, I was busy last fall working at Blunck's Photography. While I earned lots of money there, I'm glad to be gone from there. I had no life while I was there, and I didn't much like it, either.

Now I have a super awesome job at the OKC ZooFriends office with super awesome coworkers. I'm also working some hours at the Edmond Public library as a library page, which is very low key. I find sorting things cathartic.

Another change is my boyfriend Colin. We started dating in February, and we've had a great time so far. This summer, he's been in Chicago working for his dad, and that's been really hard 'cause we haven't been able to see each other. But I did go visit for a week earlier this month. That was a blast--museums, Six Flags, yummy pizza. I'll be glad when he comes back to Oklahoma in August, though, even if he is in Tulsa.

I checked this book out from the library called Keeping a Journal You Love with tips about keeping a journal without getting bored of it, which is usually what happens to me. :P So maybe this time I'll be better about posting more regularly. We'll see!